Discusting soup! :P

After I came home today, I was hungry, as always. And I saw Noodles! :) But they were from a chinese market, in Anchorage. I never really knew how grose seafood tasted! It was discusting! Horrible, and it even smelled weird.

So I spilled it out, and gonna read now. :)

I LEAVE THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW! :D

The swampies

This story is going to start with a kite. And a Birthday party. :)

Today, me Sam, and Kim went honda riding! Basically all day! Then we went to fortunes, and bought a kite. And a present for Kaden.

Then we went to the party, and I gave him his present. Then I flew my kite! :) As I told you before, on my other blog, that I have lost a kite before, and I got it back.

Bu the first time I lost it at the birthday party, I actually got it back, it was a little far out, but I got it back :) And the second time it flew away, was when John was playing with it. And he let it go. I watched the handle go around the antenna of the house across the street, and then farther out into the tundra. I chased it, and was about to give up before I saw it stop. It caught on something, and was way up there. 

WhenI got there looking for the string, some of the little kids came running over. They all said the swampies is scaaary! They said that its all gushy and deep, thats why some of them went back over to the party. But DJ stayed and helped a bit. He looked at the kite. and said "Get down here you little brat!"

And then went back to the party. Now I was looking for it, all by myself. But there were so many things there.

There were skeletons of toys and easter baskets.

I just gave up and lied down, and waited for something to happen.

Then I heard the kite start to mak alot of noise. I didn't mind it, then I felt a string on my nose. I got up, and saw the kite down, and me holding the string, I was soo happy! :) I got the kite back into the air, and started to follow the string.

The string was actually nowhere where we were looking, it was way back. But I just tok the kite back to the party, and was starting to reel it back in. I got tired, and let sam do it. Bacause I was hungry.

After I went inside, Sam came in holding the kite string. Of course... it was gone.

Im too tired to type anymore.

OH Im leaving tomorrow! :) STATE FAIR!! :D 

IF I cud pay for sunshine...

Usually, the weather here is GRAY and RAINY. And It's like that almost ALL THE TIME. :) But today is sunny...ish. Which is good! But dont you wish you cud just pay for it?

Like a dollar a day, does repay, for the sushine to come out and play! ALL DAY! :)

If that were true, I Would be broke :) If you REALLY love sun! YOU should give it 365$!! :D WE WOULD HAVE SUN ALL YEAR!! :D

I wish that were true.

Basically, all of the people I usually visit left yesterday. And I was supposed to go with them! But... I got bumped!!!

But Ill go ina few days, I think.

For now, I want to walk! WITH MY IPAD! :D

I look ridiculous walking with it though! LOL

Well, the clouds keep getting the way of the sun, so its changing alot. Gray, sunny, gray, sunny, GRAY, sunny. And it kinda  gets shorter everytime

Unhappiness... :(

Usually I'm happy! A very happy fun person. :)

But I do get sad sometimes.

I feel unimportant sometimes... And it makes me...  sad. BUT im not depressed, just fell a little... out of place. 

And some people I think dont really like to talk to me :( I think they take me out of chat on facebook :( Which hurts alot :( :(... and... some people do. That makes me feel unimportant, and more sad.

I do feel forgotten sometimes too. Some people forget me even when im here... but... they do. :/ And always goes and does something fun... without me. :( Which really hurts... :(

I just want my mom back... And I dont want to deal with the unhappy things right now... :,( BUT everything didn't really change after she was gone.

and some people broke promises.

I just want to go away sometimes... And I sometimes think everyone will be happier here if I left. They probably wouldn't even notice... :,(

IM sick and tired of apologies from people :,(

I don't want to remember what happened to mom! It always makes me cry.

And now I have to deal with this stupid crap?! Unhappiness?! I guess so!! :,( :,(

And SOME people said I can talk to them about things when I'm sad...

Well only a few friends did that... the other ones who dont even have me on chat NEVER got my messages... or even REPLIED!!! :,(

I DONT CARE ABOUT THOSE PEOPLE ANY MORE!!!

They hardly pay attention to me! Which really FRICKING hurts!! Thanks alot... liars... :,(

Broken promises, Loss of a person, and being forgotten. Wow, well that sounds wonderfull... :,(

The last thing I need is to deal with the STUPID hard parts of life right now!

Along with pressure from school... JUST GREAT! :,(

Only SOME actual NICE friends talk to me... and actually reply, with a nice answer... Unlike some people who don't even talk to me... or have me on chat. Misewell delete me... :,(

Well you should just be happy you have a mom right now.

WELL LET ME TELL YOU NOW... MY MOM IS GONE!! :,( :,( :,(

AND ITS NO FAIR TO ME!!! :,(

YOU WILL NEVER know how hard it is when you're mom is actually gone.

No more saying "Mom" Or hearing her voice ever again.

Shes just gone

No one to cook you you're favorite meals.

Or talk to anymore.

Well my mom is gone... I have to deal with that, along with the stupid parts of life. Who basically forgot about me.

IF U READ THIS. Go show it to everyone! :,(

And if you really DO care about me... you wud keep promises... and actually talk to me......... instead of having me on a FRICKING list!!! THAT HURTS!!!! :,( :,(

The half feeling of ACCOMPLishment

Well, I DID read the book. but I only did two pages. Because I'm tired. but I did more than I was supposed to do. Which is good... I think

But I kind of feel better now that I finished a lot today.

Well bye now, Im gonna go to bed!

Wow, maybe I should wait longer before I make a post. Because The ones I make now are short. :)

I am going to do this!!! But I REALLY don't want to. :/

I got homework... I do! I already finished my math, and I was doing Aleks. And I was on the last problem, LAST PROBLEM and my horrible internet quit out! Now all I have left to do is reading! :/

I already did one chapter and wrote about it, like I'm supposed to do. All I'm supposed to do is one. But... I am going to do 4!! Yeah, lots of work.

Homework... CHECK!

I just now finished math! Well... the first assignment. And it was easy! :D

I also went running today... again! It's hard, and IRDK how people do it LOL. But... I guess ill do it, :)

Wow, nothing really to say. SO SEE U LATER!

Homework... CHECK!

I just now finished math! Well... the first assignment. And it was easy! :D

I also went running today... again! It's hard, and IRDK how people do it LOL. But... I guess ill do it, :)

Wow, nothing really to say. SO SEE U LATER!

My messed up nightmares

I think that I might have told you about my disturbing nightmares? Well if I already did, well you're gonna hear it again... in word form.

As you all SHOULD know... twilight scares me... honestly. I have nightmares about that. And that is why I am going to tell you now!

It all starts in school, which is where most of my nightmares occur. And It's like at break. (10:15) And everyone is playing basket ball.

Now... this is where is gets confusing so read carefully.

In my dreams, the school system is magic... literally. Not (Harry Potter stuff though). Like literal magic. The teachers vote (but sometimes pick) each student's dream or nightmare. 

And in my dream... it went wrong

You see, that day everyone voted for Twilight stuff! :/

And when they all came, I slowly grabbed my bag, and was gonna go out the door. But it was locked... of course. And I was running towards the other door, but I was stopped. By the HUGEST wolf I had ever seen. And of course it wanted to eat me. AND IT TALKED! it asked why I wanted to go. I told it that it scared me. It just laughed and said it's not just him, even the people on MY SCHOOL do.

Confuzed I said "what?" Then he pointed to all of them. They all looked normal to me. And I said "what's wrong?" He just paused. I looked back, and they were all biting each other changing into those scary creatures. My mouth dropped, and I slowly started to back away until I hit the wall. The wolf laughed and went to the crowd of my friends who were not really human anymore.

A door pops out behind me.

But when I looked at all the kids, they kind of looked the same, then I looked closer. And their eyes had no color... AT ALL just black. Thats when I noticed the difference.

Then I fell through the rusty door, dropping my bag. They all looked at me as if I were dinner, so as my normal instinct... I ran. I never saw them come after me, then I just kept going, and then they were right on front of me. So I ran the other way, and kept going.

I was running in a maze, and it was cement and barbwire.

Then I ran into Rylee. And she had jet black eyes, and I just fell down. And I asked "Rylee... is that you?" I said about to cry. She looked at me and said "yes" There was a long pause.

Then everyone came. All of them had the same eyes. Now this is where I started to cry. I said "GO AWAY!!"

They all just laughed. I got up and ran through them. And kept going. Then I ran into softo and Madison. They both looked totally angry. Then I yelled "WHAT DO YOU WANT!!" They both came up to my ear and whispered "You" I ran the other way... but of course they caught me. Then everyone else came. Then someone bit me. Now I knew this was the end.

But let me tell you now, dreams are so realistic... and that bite HURT!!! LOL

I managed to get away. But they were right behind me. Then I just stopped. So did they. I turned around, and didnt do anything. The bite just healed, and I saw myself just die. I was in my soul form, not in my body anymore.

I started to cry, and looked at everyone and yelled "WHAT DID YOU DO!!" They heard me. Then pointed behind me.

I looked, and saw myself standing, smiling at me. Thats when I just ran, I knew I was dead though. And everyone else did too, thats why they followed me. I finally stopped and turned around, they all were in wolf form. I asked "If I'm not me, then where are my friends" They said' You got lucky, you're soul escaped us"

I knew they weren't dead, they were really monsters. I looked at them angrily. And they didn't smile, they looked sad.

I turned around and saw my heaven that I had always dreamed of.  I started to float away. Seeing them get smaller, and smaller. Then they just fled away.

NOW is where I wake up!

Pretty weird right?

RIGHT??!!

I told you they were messed up LOL!!!

BTW: I only had this dream a couple times, and this was the most recent. Like a week ago. I think.

it changes every time! I HOPE I NEVER HAVE IT AGAIN!! LOLOOLL :D

Running= talking

Also today, my little neise got baptized today! She screamed most of the time. I never really knew what was going on, so I went onto the living room, and played on my ipad and helped at the same time. Pretty easy. But I'm glad she's blessed now :) 

Oh, and we ran outside yesterday... I think. I might have already told you, well anyways it wasn't really fun for me and Lil. :( Thats because we were last :/ The very last ones, it made us really sad. We felt so misplaced, and didn't want to be there. But, after everyone passed us up, we started talking bout stuff. Then I asked if I could come stay at Auntie Annie"s with them. (Which I did :D) And she said "ya, maybe" Then as we went farther talkin about tired we were. She said one more thing to me. She said "But they run around shirtless at night! LOL" I said "What? HAHA!!" She said "Ya they do!" I said "HAHA!! That was random lil LOL!!" She said "I don't know LOL"

That was the randemest thing coming from Lil"s mouth HAHA!!! Thats still funny! 

I'm tired now, so by :)

Japanese is a mean language. So is math!

Okay, I totally forgot to tell all of you! I havent stayed home for almost 5 days! I stayed like 3 or 2 nights at my sisters. And I stayed out... 2 times already. All on a row! The reason why I am staying out so much, is because the preist is staying in my room. And I was going to clean that. I am not against Preists, but I kinda get mad at my dad for letting him take my room!

But we got over it, I'm not mad at the preist, just mad at my dad... kinda, not anymore.

BUT last night was SUPER fun! Me, Josh, James, Morgan, Softo, and Lil. All stayed at Auntie Annie's last night! Softo fell asleep at like 2 though. but we all made it to at least 5. All it was was skype, and facebook and other stuff! Still Awesome though.

Just some of the madness that occured haha!!

After softo fell asleep, it was just me, Lil, Josh, and James (but James was in the bathroom). Me and lil were so tired, we could laugh at anything LOL!! :D so Josh decides to play the serious game where you can't laugh. We started, and I won a few of em. Then I started to laugh. Then we were all being serious, but after like 5 seconds, I just said MOO and we all laughed!

After we were done playing, we just kept laughing at the word MOO HHAHAHAHA!!!

Then, I went home, and cleaned my birds part of the room, and came over to Josh's house. And here I am now. After seeing Peter's failed bomb, we all just decided to go to bed. Well I'm blogging, because I want to type :).

But earlier, I was playing with the Languages on my computer, after I fell asleep with it. I wanted to see what Japanese looked like. It wasn't fun trying to find the English button!!! I have to get an app for that :)

Well, thats enough for now :) see you soon.

1 by 1... YOUR ALMOST DONE!!

Okay, I am uploading photos, deleting pointless email messages, and blogging. An I'm also downloading firefox. I'm kinda tired of safari, so... I'm switching back to firefox! I'm more used to that, I can choose themes!

And, I just got done making a discription for EVERY photo I uploaded! It took foever, but it's all done :)

3 days in a row?! I think so!

Gosh I have got to get used t updating this thing! Well it's not my fault, blame it on my stupid koody internet okay? Okay. :)

We went swimming, yes the day before yesterday was the first time we went. and it was... well freezing, and my feet were cold, so I just went in, and it was SO COLD! But I just endured it, until I got used to it, I did... eventually.

And the next day, we went swimming, I went with my sister, and Jayden (my little cousin) And I only went in like 2 times, then I quit. Because I was just plain cold!

AND THE NEXT DAY! We went swimming, but this time was better. Because? Because we went in to a place where there were hardley any wind. And we found the deepest part, and it was auwsem! We had to numb up first. We just got in the water up to our necks, and just sat there shivering. until, we got used to it! and it was so fun! we swam for like ever!

AND school started, enthusiasm wasn't up too high that first day (which was yesterday). And I'm going to cross country! How fun, but the practice is kinda... hard. But I like the new school system, it's really digitally organized, so right now, I am editing photos on facebook, blogging, and doing math. It just said I have to restart my computer, so I am hurrying!

And I have to stay at my sister's house again, because the priest is staying in my room. Kinda ockward..., he used my charger too! lol :)

My and my bird stayed at Chelsea's last night. It was pretty fun, I watched 2 movies! 13 ghosts and Enough. I haven't seen those in forever. I also got a new computer too, but it isn't mine, and I can only use it at the school, thats kinda dumb right? I can't use mine there either! And the ones we have are being monitored by the teachers! Well, I'm here now, and I am going to finish as much as I can. So by!!

Birthday!!

Today, Was Peter's party, but his birthday was actually a few days ago. Anyways, there were a lot of kids there, and a few big kids that I knew. It was really fun, :). But, I don't really sing the birthday song... at all lol. I just mouth the words, and pretend I am singing it, to be honest the song is kinda weird lol. No offense.

AND there is school in a few days, like literally. It does NOT make me happy! I like to sleep all day!!! almost, I just dread getting up at 7  in the morning.

Sorry, I was busy

OMG, I'm sorry I never updated in forever!!!!!, but here I am now! :) I'm going to go play a game now.. so by, I'm tired :)

SLOW DAY!!

Today, I kinda never did anything, except the dishes, those were easy. I let my bird out while I was doing them, and she got all wet LOL, but it wasn't dishwater. I put the fosset in the other half of the sink (which was dry) then went to get the phone. When I came back she was all wet, she went back to her hiding place to dry off. I am at Josh's house right now, :). Have a nice day!!!!!

Creations

I have this cool game for wii. And it's called "Boom Blox" I love it! I even have the sequel to it. I mostly play the first one though, because it has more building space. The objective of the game is easy, you just have to build, and then destroy (on free-play mode) I spend most of my time on that, but thee are levels too. I am almost done with them, but it gets harder, so I spend all of my time on free-play. :)

Anyways, I made a 3 story house!!! with an atic!!! God it took forever, but Ill put up pictures later, when I put the wii into the living room. :) At night, I am usually the only one up lol. So, I can move the wii into the living room with the flatscreen! :D I LOVE MY TV!!! I dont really use it  during the day though. Mostly at night :)

Creations

I have this cool game for wii. And it's called "Boom Blox" I love it! I even have the sequel to it. I mostly play the first one though, because it has more building space. The objective of the game is easy, you just have to build, and then destroy (on free-play mode) I spend most of my time on that, but thee are levels too. I am almost done with them, but it gets harder, so I spend all of my time on free-play. :)

Anyways, I made a 3 story house!!! with an atic!!! God it took forever, but Ill put up pictures later, when I put the wii into the living room. :) At night, I am usually the only one up lol. So, I can move the wii into the living room with the flatscreen! :D I LOVE MY TV!!! I dont really use it  during the day though. Mostly at night :)

Creations

I have this cool game for wii. And it's called "Boom Blox" I love it! I even have the sequel to it. I mostly play the first one though, because it has more building space. The objective of the game is easy, you just have to build, and then destroy (on free-play mode) I spend most of my time on that, but thee are levels too. I am almost done with them, but it gets harder, so I spend all of my time on free-play. :)

Anyways, I made a 3 story house!!! with an atic!!! God it took forever, but Ill put up pictures later, when I put the wii into the living room. :) At night, I am usually the only one up lol. So, I can move the wii into the living room with the flatscreen! :D I LOVE MY TV!!! I dont really use it  during the day though. Mostly at night :)

I...R....d.......k

Today, is a Sunday, YAAAAY! And I don't really know what to do lol! I guess a walk is suggested :)

Stupid moody internet

SCHOOL IS ON THE 17!!??

OMG I HATE SCHOOL..well... I hate it here, I would like it better in Anchorage. :)

Well, enough of that depressing subject, lets move on to something fun. BUT THERE IS NOTHING FUN TO TALK ABOUT!! THERE IS NO BRIGHT SIDE AT THE MOMENT!! The weather outside is terrible, we live in a tiny little COLD town that isn't even on the map. And if it is, you have ti squint to see it, google earth would probably have problems finding it. AND ALASKA IS HARDLY ON THE MAP EITHER, ITS LIKE WAY OFF TO THE SIDE!!!

And the internet here, is crappy, and moody. Sometimes it's nice to you and opens up you're facebook page. but when it isn't, and doesn't load ANYTHING..... YOU DIE!!!!!!! ITS HORRIBLE!!!!!!

Today, I went for a walk, (before it was raining) with my ipad. THEN it started raining. CRAP! As I walked back to my grams, I was glaring at the sky saying how stupid mother nature is. SHE RUINED MY WALK!! I AM NOT TALKING OR FORGIVING HER UNTILL SHE BRINGS NICE WEATHER!!! LOL!!!

The internet's mood right now, is, grouchy but it will work. Thats whats it's usual mood is, but at night it's really nice! Like at midnight.

Oh, I watched the second Diary of a wimpy kid movie thing. It was Okay... Cheesy... but okay.

NOW everyone who is out there, like anyone ever is, BY JERKS!!!!!! haha lol jk your all awesome 

2 times the fun

HELLOW PEOPLE

I really hope that you don't hate me... I have never updated in like forever... very true.

But... here is very good news just for you! As all of you should know... I have made a new youtube video clog thingey!!! YAY Now... I am going to use that.. alom with my blogger account... just because I have found joy in typing again... okay.. write more later :)